:: Saturday, February 02, 2008 ::
what is it like to blog?
just picking up some of my books to study when i felt like blogging...
haha
wanted to swim today, but there's no sun =/
the exams has totally disorientated my life...
random updates:
-last paper on tues =)
-posted to SICC for attachments (how to get there?)
-i've bought a nike low dunk pro SB
-plans to get bigger by half my size (pls dont ask why -i dont know)
besides that... i'm really bored...
catch me if u can...
oh, ya.. i want to make a wish list too..
and then i can remember not to forget them.. hmmm..
well its for me to get, dont worry..
if u wanna get for me its fine too haha.. its not a demand list... (sorry avanna tan)
just random nonsense...
thats why there arent pictures... =p
1. Camera
2. Dumbells
3. A few sets of polo tees
4. Bagpack (that suits me) -its really hard to find =(
5. Colongue (i dont spend that on myself)
-thats enough for now...
macho claps
9:58 PM
:: Thursday, September 13, 2007 ::
its been a while since i'm back here eh?
haha, and who's the target audience?
have you ever felt tired of the victories that you've won?
or is it after countless victories you have conqure,
what is the point of not having someone to share it with..
its an empty feelin that consumes the look of your throphys..
is it true that the older you go, the lesser friends u have?
perhaps people learn how to become more and more fake as the grow older..
what is there to impress?
so that u will become special?
to find your identity?
ppl like you because of your hobbies or interest..
thats just so skin deep..
oh well.. u shall provide, i'm still waiting..
macho claps
1:26 AM
:: Saturday, June 16, 2007 ::
hey man.. how are u doing?
still hanging on to smth that isnt worth?
or are u just pretending to move on...
well boy, i tell you this,
bless your little eyes to widen up and see,
even if u havent move on, she did...
un-hope yourself that she will miss you,
dont think she has made you her world,
like you have made her yours..
smarter up, to see that its no longer about you..
OH WAIT, IT NEVER WAS...
you were there, but it has always been about someone else...
people that you honour came to the books of disgrace at an instance..
"i'm bored with this blog...
so am i with your flirts...
it is finished..
dont ever revive it again..."
"youdonthavetotalktomeanoymore,
gofindthosethatmakeyouHIGH"
macho claps
2:14 PM
:: Wednesday, June 06, 2007 ::
why do you look so sad?
why do you lick your wounds?
why do you take in those arrows?
why do you swallow those blood?
why do you not sell her out?
why do you still stand by?
beacause i "loved" her...
-given a thousand years she will not change... (not for you)
-she will smith you where your heart is at the least..
-she shall step upon you and your name shall be forgotten..
-your face shall be of a stranger's in her eyes..
-she will infratrate into your circle of friends..
-taking what she needs, you are left aside...
you are merely a stepping stone, a foothold, a brick to her intendment..
you are not the object, just another line in her book...
unfortunate but true,
what the ancients has warned you, it has forcome...
your foolish heart has sold you out...
what has pleased your ears and eyes, have now hurt your heart...
NOW,
will you stand and rise forth?
will you awaken to not relive your tragedy?
will you take courage for your heart to be mended?
will you face your broken heart?
will you justify the ones that care for you?
finally....
ask if she's ever worth it...
dont let her pierce your heart again....
macho claps
11:58 PM
:: Wednesday, May 16, 2007 ::
guess only when the stars cry the blackest tears will this heart of the stronghold be visited...
holding back no more... truth is, it hurts everytime i say; "its alright"... it hurts everytime i smile... it hurts to think that i belived it was smth special...
now i really know that i'm nothing than a line in yor book...
-"if you cant take it den leave"
sorry, u're right.. i cant take to hurt myself everytime i see what i thought was for me only but was meant for others too...
i cant take it... i'll go...
i dont want to be just a line in your booK...
i rather be out of your books...
which makes me feel better if u hate me...
i cant give you what you want..
for that i regret..
we shall take it like nth happened then...
apologies for my guts...
but i dont want you to see my tears...
and i dont want to rob your smile...
all the best and take cares....
=)
macho claps
12:43 AM
:: Friday, February 23, 2007 ::
dammit... hit me before i knew it...
... hit me again...
i get up
...hit me harder once more...
wasted my time, get out of my life, get out of my face,
best of all, get out of my sight...
it stinks... no doubt.. well it doesnt really matters..
cause if thats how its gonna be.. den let it lie..
shant put anything there den..
i'm done with it anyway...
just wasted more time thats all...
why do i even bother...
macho claps
9:46 PM
:: Monday, February 19, 2007 ::
"how can something so right be soo wrong"
ever heard of this catch phrase?
yea, not only heard of it, its seaping right into my live
i asked myself, what is the ONE thing that i put first in my life,
the answer would be the one politicaly-right-undeniable-role-model one
but if i take that away and assume all laws being lifted up,
going beyond my wildest and most secret desire, i've un-becomed the person i percieved i am...
i start to wonder, am i correct about the way i feel?
could it be just me?
is the sitaution really what i thought it was?
how many times have you been betrayed by it...
why do u keep giving it another chance?
what do you really want?
and i think i'm still right...
YES
Y E S
Y E S
u're the one i've decided on.. u shall be the last one i ever think off..
i wont allow myself to say otherwise..
cause the thought of u has always put a smile on my face..
u've got my heart.. and u know it..
its for you to fill or burst,
break or bury,
or wear as jewelry,
which ever :) prefer..
coz my hopes are so high that :) kiss would kill me
so would :) kill me?
so i'll die happy...
u've heard it b4...
now its true..
macho claps
11:43 PM