sometimes... i wish i could just act as if i dont know anthing.. i wish i can just be someone niave.. someone who doesnt know anything.. doesnt feel anything.. who doesnt get attached to feelings so easily.. but its impossible... its like superman.. but doesnt superman wish he did not have to power?? coz power with aaron is tired.. he doesnt wanna act anymore.. should he say the truth?? or just cry my way to sleep?? anyway.. it goes like this......

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird
I’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd
But don’t be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed
But won’t you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away
Away from me
It’s all right
You can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy
Or anything

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me

Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
You, you need to listen I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip and I'm in this thing alone

wat ever... i want u well, u wish me torn...

hello hello hello... hmmm now writing this blog with damn high spirits but low physics.. haha just came back from rowing at kallang... geez awesome... its like the proper way of rowing is not with your arms!!!! wow!!! never knew that... and i'm not suppose to have my arms tired!!! wahahah... but well.. it was awesome.. finally get into a boat!!! yeah

i'm now in this foriegn land called(yochukang)... now having lessons... some stupid internet bluh bluh.. dont understand... kinda computer illiterate... anyway.. i really miss everyone in the east over here... E.T. wanna go home =( geez.. how are u doing there??? east"iest OEAYYYYYYYYYY

is getting back at me really gonna work??? why? break me because i broke u?? broke you because u dont even have a whole to start with?? because of u?????? so now wat? hurt me to unhurt yourself... why?? the reason why u were hurt was because u once loved, but have your love turned into hate?? does hating bring back the love u wanted? u wanted love but it is gone... so now destroy so that this love could never be given to anyone again???

geez... another war being fought in another galaxy... "i dont want any love anymore"... love is best given with no expectancy of having it back in return... the truth is.. it never does return... its a form of giving... an unconditional love is the most powerful love... love because u were loved and be loved because u had love?? izzint that a cycle... who cares... wadever... it feels like i'm crumbling inside... how can i show that its true..?? its the inside thats falling... its so painfull in the inside... the worst way to kill is to kill the root first... den the rest will fall into place soon...

hopefully it will be over soon... i know it will... but the scars will never change... just wondering when will the love come back again...

have u ever wondered how much can u take before u let all your ego out?? or like when will u put your foot down and say "thats the final straw!!! i wont take it anymore??".. ttx said that my ego was v.low... or even no ego... but is that good??? like wheres the backbone of a man in me...

why do keep going back knowing that you dont want my help... why do i stick my hand out knowing that it will be hacked and pushed away... why do i wanna help so much even sacrificing a friend that was close for you when you dont even want to acknowledge this friendship anymore... you kept insisting that i'm seeing her.. and she is not even with me!!!! she's like schooling so far and worst of all!!! she's your good friend!!! she cares for u Too!!!! why????? i did not belive that u were spiking me and i'm still in doubt... i will not belive that u will spike me... but my heart breaks seeing wat u've done... do u really hate me so much??? so if its me that u hate den why do u hurt yourself??? is that the best way to get back at me??? u know that he's attached.. u know he will manipulate you... we've been a victim... and so wat if u accept his "love".. u know that he should not in the first place... by "loving" him back... u're actually supporting his past manipulation acts..

u say that i dont care... yes!!! u're right... i dont care if i get hurt anymore.. pls... dont get any closer to him... leave him... there are many others out ther... u dont need to force yourself... pls... haiz... i even promised to not talk to her.. to never meet her.. i'll even vanish so that u will never feel hurt by me if ever there shall be any chance.... there wont... but pls... i just need you to stop going closer to him... pls???

alright alright.. i had a crush on her.. but that was so long ago...
anyway.. i told her(jean) that i did not like her anymore... but she did not belive... so i said, "why cant u belive!!!!" and she went.. "why do u make it so easy!!!??" den i could hold back no longer but i went "it never had been easy!!!".. well it was totally irrelevent but it sounded really like the show "LOST" haha....

i know u are reading this... pls... dont do this to me anymore... i still want you to be my friend.. to be the way we used to be.. to share the joys the sorrows.. the way where we talk our way till we feel so gay... c'mon... pls dont be like that... no matter wat... u'll always be my friend.. so pls.. dont change it... pls... sorry (chy)

baby, would u come to me?
so that i can just maybe breathe?
although u and me, aint so satisfied, i can try to just make it right...

so wat if its me dat you dont crave...
coz its u that makes me daze...
as my days goes by, my heart slowly dies, from being inmuned to your pretty eyes..

even if theres poison on your lips,
i'll still be there first for your kiss..
it might be the last goodnight, but i dont mind, coz i'll be happy in my sleep...

now come to me or just kill me...
coz either way i will still die!!!!
at least now, we're both satisfied...

arghhh heart trobbing... so much thoughts, dunno how to express... have u ever got into a situation where u like somebody but u dont want to like that person??? as in, u know there can never be happy ending and u know that it will never happen but still, you feel so much for her... that really sucks...

another friend once said :"if u really love that person, you ought to treat her well". Well, yea.. thats what i've been doing.. and to say the truth, its really satisfying to see her smile, laugh and happy... but deep down, it really hurts coz u know that u can neve be with her.. that u can only get so far... but so wat if i'm with her... does that mean that i ought to love her more?? cant i love her even more just as we are?? but she doesnt know that i love her... she shall never know.. coz if she does, she will go as far as she can from me... and that will break me even more... but loving her is about being the best for her... to be there waiting for her if she falls.. to standby, to be her backup... all these can be done with the word "friendship" in disguise.. so should i tell her that i love her?? coz we're both now happy.. but if she doesnt love me back.. i'll loose everything that i have come so far... perhaps its better for it to just remain one sided.. coz after all.. i love her.. and loving her is not about taking from her but giving... i may not be the best.. but i'll be just like the rest... (just an ordinary friend)

geez... i'm seriously under going blessings after blessings lar.... its like good things happen one after another lar... alright... and i really praise god coz i'm sure its surely gods' love manifested in my life!!!!

blessing #1: at the place that i work at, there's this guy that shows attitude to everyone that he sees, and he's known for his "easily pissed of and so u must suffer" tempremant... to make things worst, i had to work three days straight at the restuarant with him!!!!! but here comes the weird part, because i'm still kinda rookie at this job, and he's like the pro lar... so of course he did not really tolerate my ineffieciency, but these three days, he did not give me any problem lar!!! he even guided me and helped me in a caring way when i seemed to be tired off by carry some heavy stuff... he even like asked :hey, eat slowly, theres more food coming out, and even asked me repeatedly if i'm full... gosh

Blessing #2: well this one is rather satisfying... alright, because of the entertainment value that i wish to also intergrate into this blog, the contents of wat lead to this blessing shall be written as followed...

ENCOUNTER #1: it was friday BS and before that, i just had $100 from my dad(one of the good things that had happened this week. anyway, i was looking for a bag, probably a lecoq sprtif bag... and so i went looking ard with TINGzzz and VANzz but i wasnt really settled to buy it coz of the size of the bag that did not fit me... anyway, later that night, i meet up with CRYYSTAL and so happened that she also had a liking for a specific bag that was quite similar to the Lecoq sportif bag... it was NIKE... BLACK and LIMEGREEN... but because of timing, i onli managed to see the bag but did not buy it..

ENCOUNTER #2: its a sunday this time, i was with MARTINA after service... i also told her that i wanna buy bag, and again, being nice as she is, she followed me to check out some bags at royal(lecoq sportif)... but it wasnt really satisfying still... den later we go see the bag that cryystal showed me... hmmm.. well, its was still ok lar... coz i didnt have time and my money has not really come in yet... well but i felt that the bag was nicer this time coz it has nice features at the sides...

ENCOUTER #3: its Tuesday.. shopping day... Me, VANzzz and MARTINAzz went to orchard... both patient friends were very kind to give me pointers wether the bag looks good or not... so we went to every possible place that have LeCoq Sportif bag and i realised that either it is too big, the colour is too loud or it just look a bit gal... den i rmb the bag that i saw on friday... both of them have not seen me in it and gave comments yet... so we went down to heeren as thats the onli nikeshop(fasion type) available.. so we went down... but the bag was no where to be seen.. i asked the assistant onli to have him point to a guy(hate him) holding it, meddling with it, and later paying for it... frantic, i asked the asst. if thats the last piece... and it was!!! it was the display piece, and he said that the bag was available to onli 80 pieces in singapore!!!! aRRGHHHH den he said, 'OK, let me go upstairs to check, there might be one more there" i waited, and waited, and looked at other bags for a while... den he came down, IT WAS BRAND NEW!!!!!! WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA i got the last bag at the store and IT WAS BRAND NEW!!!! OOOOO MAN!!!! thats like the sweetest thing i ever had lar!!!!

Breathe in for luck,
breathe in so deep,
this air is blessed,
you share with me.
This night is wild,
so calm and dull,
these hearts they race,
from self control.
Your legs are smooth,
as they graze mine,
we're doing fine,
we're doing nothing at all.

My hopes are so high,
that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me,
so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury,
or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.

The words are hushed lets not get busted;
just lay entwined here, undiscovered.
Safe in here from all the stupid questions.
"hey did you get some?"
Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't hear...
so we can get some.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.

Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember,
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
the dim of the soft lights,
the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers
and the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
and this walk that we shared together.
The streets were wet
and the gate was locked so I jumped it,
and I let you in.
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like you meant it.
And I knew that you meant it,
that you meant it,
that you meant it,
and I knew,
that you meant it,
that you meant it.

I’ve given up on giving up slowly, I’m blending in so
You won’t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption
because I know to live you must give your life away
And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape

OMG!!! this stupid song is bloody stuck in my head!!! its like wat the heck lar!!! i cant get it out... and i will put it as my ring tone when i get my SLVR L7 man!!!!!

damned... i was so bloody close to getting my Motorola SLVR L7!!!!
haiz.. its too agonising to re-live this painful expeirence...
oh well... just gotta belive that god have better plans for me abt my phone...

anyway, went for BS with my well-missed DARE friends... gosh pastor lawrence was charged man!!! he's like "pastor Lawrence: reloaded/full trottle" or wadever... geez its so true that it does not matter wat we do cause the battle is not mine but its the Lords.. so we have to rest in him!!! so seriously lord.. from now on, i'm giving it up to you man... i'm giving up.. all up... for although i will work, but it shall not be my effort to see me through!!! it shall be your finished work man!!!

yea, i've got this up man.. and now, u all can read my blog...
credits?? alright alright... AVANNA TAN and MARTINA both helped me...
so i might be ABIT computer iddiot...

anyway... all you beloved fwens.. i realised even though all of us go "tp", my "tp"(tammY polytechnic) is kinda far away... however i dont wanna feel as far away as my school are to yours.. so, i shall keep my adventures/scandals/escapades/crimefighting etc. posted over here... so we wont miss out on each others'lives!!!! MuAhAhAha!!!!!

and if ever the last item of my agenda(tHE mAstER plAn) ever occur b4 meeting those seemingly requirements above, it shall then be called AN ADVENTURE!!!! lol

geez... i got finally got this blog up.... hmmm i'm not much of a computer iddiot after all... muahhahahaha

aaron
12 september 1989
tnps
spf
nyp(sports & wellness)
nus(???)
he's crazy lar...


boys brigade
dragon boat??
rollerbladder??!


sporty
elegant
smart
funny
sweet


stylish hair
Great Body (abs!!!)
Get bitten by a spider
Get kryptonian genes
Save the world
get the girl???


avanna.
anju
cryystal.
chungchuan.
derek chua.
eugene lee.
hsingyeeeeee.
huiying.
kayleen.
mac.
melly.
nani(kotek).
nurul.
sharon.
sufyan
tingxuan.
weixiang.
xingwei.




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