:: Friday, September 29, 2006 ::
silly, its weird.. who did i live my life for???
who's apraisal have i been seeking??
who's voice really matter to me??
this really shocked me as i began to ask myself...
is it really GOD that i ran after??
coz if it is.. den why do the sting of rejection still have effects on my flesh?
damn...
but thank GOD that repentence is the changing of mind...
lord, i wanna run for u alone...
even if the world crashes i know u will be there...
coz whos gonna cry when you fall...
whos gonna be there when u sink...
but thanks..
u've always been there...
=)
macho claps
11:17 PM
:: Thursday, September 28, 2006 ::
thanks joe, i know u were tired but u still made an effort to blade with me...
funny.. didnt knew that the route we actually missed leads us back to bedok resevior form sempang bedok.. hahah...
bladding was fun...
i'm loving it...
and ya...
i still want my fresh nothings from above lord.. thanks =)
macho claps
3:38 PM
thanks joe, i know u were tired but u still made an effort to blade with me...
funny.. didnt knew that the route we actually missed leads us back to bedok resevior form sempang bedok.. hahah...
bladding was fun...
i'm loving it...
and ya...
i still want my fresh nothings from above lord.. thanks =)
macho claps
3:38 PM
:: Wednesday, September 27, 2006 ::
the other day i walked down the path towards the MT faber restuarant, i realised that the flowers by the side was especially beautiful.. i wonder why.. but the weather was cool..
somtimes, it feels like u made everything beautiful for me.. the trees, the grass, the flowers.. the sky.. somtimes its as though you formed the clouds in the sky the way it is just to tell me a story... to say that you're watching me.. and u have made my day to turn out well...
i wanna hear your voice...
UN-numb my heart...
i wanna hear you speak fresh sweet-nothings to me again...
macho claps
3:01 PM
:: Tuesday, September 26, 2006 ::
SHE ASKED "will you still love me in the morning?"
HE SAID "forever and ever baby"
(when she left)
HE ASKED "what happen to forever and ever baby?"
SHE SAID "forever and ever just ended"
macho claps
1:25 PM
:: Thursday, September 21, 2006 ::
hold me now, i'm six feet from the edge and i'm thinking, maybe six feet aint so far down..
"everyone is too busy pitying themselves to pity me" wat the heck is wrong with that line!!!!!
its because u want the pity for yourself so bad that u never for once stopped to bloody look at how pathetic the ppl who have shut up about themselves are...
i mean, whose the victor, u thought u are great just because u endured some bloody hardship, but havent u thought for once that your hardship was only hardship for you?? you have gone through nothing compared to those who have gone through much more than you..
theres smth that i want, i worked for it, but once the money come.. they saw it, took it off my hands and paid the bills... fair?? i have to swallow that word and say that its true??? ok den.. i shall... because thats what i have been to them right? a bloody wallet leecher????!!!??? i'm your SON DAMMIT...
so what if u are their son!!!!!????? you have done nothing to say that you deserve their money.. you merely came out from one of their wombs...
OMG theres a serious crisis here... nvm.... this blog is no longer belonging to the owner... it has taken over by a few psychotic minds.. tormented at a place called home...
if u want to see him, pls do so in real life... he is not here anymore...
macho claps
11:00 PM
:: Tuesday, September 19, 2006 ::
alright, this is my second entry here.. i'm tired, sad, disappointed, kinda melancholic... arrgh.. i dunno.. its those little foxes that spoils the vine...
slow music really feeds my mood now... haiz.. daddy, pls make the sky blue tml.. and put a smile in my heart for me pls... thanks.. i really need that..
physically, emotionally, mentally, all drained....
i wanna study 4eva..
macho claps
9:55 PM
awhh.. i really missed typing on this humble little greenish window... so much to talk abt since the last time i blogged...
anyway, i really been through lots of changes in my life, ministry and family.. i feel like there's another step of un-touchability was reached...
funny, i feel that in times of melancholy, the entries that i post are far poetic then the rest.. damned.. blogging is definitely not for the vitorious and reigning side of me... thank god for blogs =)
anyway, just as i thought bring it on!!! let the lightning strike, let the wild winds blow and let the thunder roar coz i'm super invulnerable right now???
well, yea, i stood in the storm and walked accross the water... and thats great!! coz i am living as a miracle and a testimony..
but u know smth, these storms have their waves too... damn.. and will i sink when i meet a real big one? will i stand or squirm inside the water wash..
i love walking on water.. but i hate being lost, walking on water... i just got hit by a wave a really big one.. tired... stop leading me on to smth that you never want me to have... thank you god for giving me those signs =)
macho claps
9:39 PM