heart of the stronghold

:: Thursday, April 13, 2006 ::

arghhh heart trobbing... so much thoughts, dunno how to express... have u ever got into a situation where u like somebody but u dont want to like that person??? as in, u know there can never be happy ending and u know that it will never happen but still, you feel so much for her... that really sucks...

another friend once said :"if u really love that person, you ought to treat her well". Well, yea.. thats what i've been doing.. and to say the truth, its really satisfying to see her smile, laugh and happy... but deep down, it really hurts coz u know that u can neve be with her.. that u can only get so far... but so wat if i'm with her... does that mean that i ought to love her more?? cant i love her even more just as we are?? but she doesnt know that i love her... she shall never know.. coz if she does, she will go as far as she can from me... and that will break me even more... but loving her is about being the best for her... to be there waiting for her if she falls.. to standby, to be her backup... all these can be done with the word "friendship" in disguise.. so should i tell her that i love her?? coz we're both now happy.. but if she doesnt love me back.. i'll loose everything that i have come so far... perhaps its better for it to just remain one sided.. coz after all.. i love her.. and loving her is not about taking from her but giving... i may not be the best.. but i'll be just like the rest... (just an ordinary friend)

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