heart of the stronghold

:: Wednesday, May 10, 2006 ::

thanks.. i think i'm able to move on now.. its a new chapter that i have to face... and i definitely need lots of grace for the past few chapters on my life..

i suddenly lost the meaning of the letter 'A' in my life.. coz 'A' used to stand for Aaron.. but den.. it did not really equate for a while... it did not stand for Aaron.. it stand for somone else... coz when ever the letter 'A' comes to my mind.. i can only write that name.. that hauted my mind... yes, its tragic.. but still, it occured.. as much as she dont want it, i dont want it too....

thankfully, i have this place to pour out these torns that pricked my heart... anyway.. as painfull as it is, that was the past... its long forgotten i hope... i need this strength to overcome this stagnent stage... gosh, i felt like i have not grown at all!!! it feels like i'm stuck hoping for the fantesy to happen... but thats soo damned loser'ish...

i need you lord... i really need u... u're the one who delivered me from my exams, from my heart breaks, u're the one who have shown me numerous financial breakthrough.. pls lord.. this is the most painful crush that i have.. i need u to take it off me... i dont want this.. pls... i had enough!!!!! who can love me without any condition... who would lay his life down for me.. who would disociate himself from a high class company just to save a low class person like me??? who would take all my shame and counted it upon himself!!!! c'mon... jesus... pls, take this THORN out of my heart and fill me with u lord...

where are those days where i flowed so well with u?? i want it back so badly.. coz i felt so invulnerable back then for u were with me... i did not had to seek love anywhere else.. but why am i so hungry for it now??? i dont wanna be a sucker for love... i want u lord!!! i want u....

BRING IT ON... let me be yours!!!!!

macho claps
8:32 PM

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